Wednesday, June 29, 2011

June 29th, Good afternoon!

Ello you! Your probably thinking, "WHY THE HELL HAVEN'T YOU BLOGGED WEEKLY?!". I'm sorry o.o, don't beat me DX. Anyhow! The reason why you make ask?! Because in the past two weeks, I have went to my Moms and now just got back from White Lake. Videos will be below!
So, I am sorry guys! I loves youuu :3.

How was going to my Moms?! It was fun! :D. I made like 4 or 3 videos, so you guys should totally watch them! I had a blast there. The people there look really awesome:3.
How was White Lake? Um, it was alright. Pretty cool going there since I have been there in what, 2 years >.>    My family hasn't really invited me to go and do things with them, not my fault they never want to talk to me >.>
We can stop talking about that for now.
I got my first tattoo yesterday!
Well technically two tattoos, two japanese symbols that mean Dream and Beauty! :D. And a piercing, Madonna!
It was awesome:3.
To me piercings hurt more O:


Monday, June 13, 2011

June 13th Around 1pm, at the hospital.

Hey everyone! How is your summer? Hopefully going pretty well. You should just be happy you get this kind of break, haha.

My what so called summer, will be normal, I will try to be home alot. Mainlyy for Sarah, because everyone else gets on my nerves somehow, or do at times. Atleast if I stay home, Sarah won't have to stay around Dad in the bedroom or have the baby running around acting retarded because I will be mean, lol. Sarah shouldn't feel alone, because she isn't. Not even close really, but I am here for her and that's a big plus. Wouldn't you want some weirdo looking troll help you? Haha I think YES :3. So, I am going to try to go to every appointment she has, that is a hard commitment, lol, but I will try. I love you Sarah!

Right now I am using the hospitals wifi. We left the house around six something this morning to make her early bird appointment, which was around eight. She had to get radiation, then something else was done so she could get her bones scanned, I dunno the official doctor word for it, sorry. Waited four hours, till her 1pm appointment, which she is back there now, I forgot why she is back there but yeahh. Then we will have to wait again because her last appointment of the day is at three I believe. I'm sorry that I don't know what's being done off the tip of my head D: I'm sure all we go well and we will succeed on going home! Wish her luck,

This week I am going to my Moms. Thursday thru Sunday, I think. I'm hoping will have lots of fun! She says we will do alot and have alot planned, but just going there seems like a good thing, I am excited lol. We'll see though.

I'm going for now, thanks guys! I love everyone ;D.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

June 5th. 2:00am

Konnichiwa guys. How's it going? Hopefully pretty dang good seeing as this is the last week of school for you all, and I hope everyone did GREAT on their exams. (:

I really don't do anything anymore, not like I can haha. I sit around like I always have but it really gets old. I help Sarah and stay and keep her company because I love her and that's what I should do. Help her in anyway needed. Sapphire hasn't really been around much, and iunno if that worries me but I kinda don't feel that it's right, but what do I know? And Austin, well, he's a guy, well boy, and probably doesn't understand as much as he probably thinks but he should be nicer, verbally anyway, since he likes to say things. I feel that everyone should be helping out and being nice, but it doesn't seem to be going that way or to me it doesn't seem that way.

Someone made me this, suppose to be Stephen and I.
As long as Sarah is getting and feeling better I am happy. She has to have chemo though. We don't know when but she does, for about 5-6 months probably. I don't think it will be too bad but you really never know, it can have different effects upon everyone. She already said she would rather her hair fall out then puke alot. Heck, I'm with her on that. I dislike throwing up, alot. All we go good, I hope and know it. Wish her the best of luck, cause I am. Read my last two posts and you will know alot.

Lately, I seem to just feel so down. I really don't know why and it annoys me. I feel that I am not acknowledged enough like I should be and I feel pretty much worthless. Iunno really. I just have alot of issues, and even though talking to someone (1 person) about it helps a little, it still doesn't make a difference about how I feel. I think I have alot of issues and problems with people but can't tell them, cause honestly, would you want to be yelled at?or someone give you an attitude for telling the truth?I wouldn't, so some things are easily kept to myself. Hmm. I miss my Mom, I really do. But I am use to that feeling. Just wish me and her could get more time to hangout. I hope she really is trying to do better. Anyhow.So, here goes a 5th in a row of just feeling..."okay". Ignore thise part of my entry please.

Ima go guys. Thanks for reading. Love you. (: