November 9th!

Hey there! I know it has been foreverrrrrrrrr, but I haven't really been home, blah blah blah right?

What have you missed? Eh not sure but maybe if you keep reading you will see haha. I know I'm mean, deal with it you awesome person :D!

I finally got the other side of my lip pierced ya know, angel bites, and then I got my bellybutton/naval re-done. The bellybutton hurt worse than my lip one, weird huh? Well, they look pretty darn sweettttt :D!

I've been at Angels for a week or two or three, haha, just haven't felt like going home. Eh. I miss Sarah and everything but it just gets sad/boring/depressing there and with my Dad acting like a butt and won't do anything for me(school wise) I don't see the point in staying there alot, mean I know but I mean c'mon! I seriously should have already had my G.E.D. by now and it is just ridiculous >.>. I'm just waiting for him to text me or call saying that he misses me but I doubt that will happen haha. I'm a sucky person afterall. ANYHOW, enough of that haha.

Sarah's birthday was yesterday! I wasn't there but still wished her a happy birthday. I know her birthday wasn't the best seeing as she had chemo that day, bummer eh? Overall though, from how she said her day was though seemed pretty good to me which is great because she deserves a great birthday even when she isn't feeling well. I love and miss you Sarah (: <3.

I got a tattoo, yep, like a week or two ago, forgot, anyhow it's the eye of horus, it kinda hurt seeing as it hit a little bit of a bone D: !

Babysitting! I have been doing that alot, or well been trying too! I gets money and get to hangout with Addison so it's pretty rad :D. I get to see Nina too so which is super duper awesome cause I love her sooo much :D <3.

Ima go but sorry for a short update, I will really try to post a new entry soon. Love you guys<3.

September 14th.

Konnichiwa babeh ;D. I know I said I would update soon, this is basically soon so shhushhh! I just haven't felt like writing, well blogging haha. Bleh bleh! I cut my hair, yes I kinda look like a guy, but ima girl dang it! I like it though:3.

I've been up here with my Mom for like 2 weeks! I've had alot of fun, and I love her alot. But I miss my Dad and Sarah D:! I shall be going home Monday though so woot woot:3. I hope Sarah is doing good, but eh, ya know how things are so heh.

HMMMMMM.

I still need to get my g.e.d :/, I know I know I need to hurry up and do that, I will I will! I really don't want to drive, but I figure I shiuld atleast get my license when i' 18 even though I probably won't need it cause I won't want to drive haha xD, I'm weird I know, don't judge me! xD

I finally know I want to do you guys! I dunno if I wrote it in another blog post but oh well! I want to be a photographer. Like, take pictures of nature, weddings, kids, familys, anything really(: Except nude people! xDD, haha. That's what I wanna do :3. Then have a minor in business o:, so yeah!

I want another tattoo! I wanted to like have a humming bird and butterfly on my chest, like higher than my japanese tattoos and one on the upper right and the other on the upper left, but I can't find any awesome humming birds but I did find this nice butterfly, picture after this, and well I will probably get it but with different colors:3. Looks pretty wicked eh? (the butterfly on the upper left shoulder, click to make bigger).

Well, I shall update later ;D. Love you guys, peace ;D.

September 6th.

Mirror mirror on the wall, tell me WHERE has this weird girl been? I know I know, I said I would update weekly but I just haven't o.o. I wish I would have, heh.

Not much to tell you guys. Sorry.

Well, I am up here with my Mom, in Asheville, have been for almost two weeks and we have had soooo much fun and yeah, awesomeness. (: I am still here, just hanging out, hehe.

I wish I could right more, but my mind is all RARARARA o.o.

I PROMISE to update soon:3.

Love you guys<3.

I'll write'cha later ;D.

Also, I bought a dress!!

July 20th.

GAH, hey you! YEAH YOU. I have missed typing, suprising? Nah. I have been wanting to post a new entry just didn't know what to say really, heh. Almost a month since I have wrote, and it sucks D: I still want to blog weekly but we will see how that goes, won't we?(: I shall update you..starting...NOW.





My Dad and Granny!



July 10th! My Dad's birthday! We didn't really do anything. We ate some honeybun cake, and let me tell you..MMMMM, it was so damn dang good! We played his video games, well not really together haha. Not much of a day really, but I thought it was good. He turned 41, SHH ;D.

July 15th! My Granny's birthday. I didn't really see her, but I did go to work with my Dad that morning to give her a card and ..CORN. I picked the corn just for her! She liked it, hahaha.


Past couple of weeks?! Haven't seen my Mom :/. I have spent time with my sister, Nina, and her baby, Addison. That was fun. I don't always see her alot, but I should. She is just amazing, and so is little Addison.



Addison!



I love her alot :D, and Addison. We ate, watched movies, chilled, gossiped, alot of shiz, haha.

Stayed at my cousins, Angel, Brooklynn, and Jacob and had fun with them and even stayed with Memaw some.

How's Sarah? I guess she is okay, heh. I haven't been home much really >.<. But! I did go with her today while she got a shot, she has to get this certain shot after chemo, so I went with her. I would love to go to every visit but sometimes I can'tand that sucks D: She doesn't need to go alone! I really hate to leave home alot because I don't think anyone else would come watch movies with her and not annoy her lol. I love her alot, and do miss her when I leave!



Anyhow! I read my step sisters blog awhile back and feel like I should reply to it on mine, I will try to be nice ;D.

"She never asks to see me, or WANTS me to be there, but I guess it's okay, because none of them do. Everyone acts like Adrianna, my step-sister, is the golden child and is so perfect because she helps out. It's not like she has anything else to do honestly, and she has no where to go. She does nothing but stays up all night and sleeps all day, and I would still be doing that too if I didn't have school and work now. She needs to do something with herself since she dropped out of school. She could get a job, or at least her GED, but she has made no attempt at doing either. But whatever, she's perfect right? "

Well, Sarah shouldn't have to ask you/her daughter to come around or be there, when you audomatitly should, stop by when you want! I'm sure Sarah would love to see you anytime. Hahaahaha, noone acts like im "the golden child" or "perfect", my bad for being nice. I have nothing to do, sorry that I don't? Nowhere to go, yeah because my family tends to suck at times, not my fault. I don't stay up all night and sleep all day, I couldn't, Dad always wakes me up,a nd even if I stay up all night I wake up before or at 1pm and that isn't bad, which I don't see why what time I go to bed and wake up even matters. Ahh, I have made attempt to get my g.e.d, ask Dad, I've been trying to get him to take me up there, since he wants to get it with me, so yeah. Can't get a job without a g.e.d so that answers that. Haha, "perfect"? Sure sure. Not everything is about you Sapphire, I love you but sometimes iunno.

That's my reply!Enjoy~

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June 29th, Good afternoon!

Ello you! Your probably thinking, "WHY THE HELL HAVEN'T YOU BLOGGED WEEKLY?!". I'm sorry o.o, don't beat me DX. Anyhow! The reason why you make ask?! Because in the past two weeks, I have went to my Moms and now just got back from White Lake. Videos will be below!

So, I am sorry guys! I loves youuu :3.

How was going to my Moms?! It was fun! :D. I made like 4 or 3 videos, so you guys should totally watch them! I had a blast there. The people there look really awesome:3.

How was White Lake? Um, it was alright. Pretty cool going there since I have been there in what, 2 years >.>    My family hasn't really invited me to go and do things with them, not my fault they never want to talk to me >.>

We can stop talking about that for now.

I got my first tattoo yesterday!
Well technically two tattoos, two japanese symbols that mean Dream and Beauty! :D. And a piercing, Madonna!

It was awesome:3.

To me piercings hurt more O:

I LOVE YOU GUYS. I WILL UPDATE MORE<3.

June 13th Around 1pm, at the hospital.

Hey everyone! How is your summer? Hopefully going pretty well. You should just be happy you get this kind of break, haha.

My what so called summer, will be normal, I will try to be home alot. Mainlyy for Sarah, because everyone else gets on my nerves somehow, or do at times. Atleast if I stay home, Sarah won't have to stay around Dad in the bedroom or have the baby running around acting retarded because I will be mean, lol. Sarah shouldn't feel alone, because she isn't. Not even close really, but I am here for her and that's a big plus. Wouldn't you want some weirdo looking troll help you? Haha I think YES :3. So, I am going to try to go to every appointment she has, that is a hard commitment, lol, but I will try. I love you Sarah!

Right now I am using the hospitals wifi. We left the house around six something this morning to make her early bird appointment, which was around eight. She had to get radiation, then something else was done so she could get her bones scanned, I dunno the official doctor word for it, sorry. Waited four hours, till her 1pm appointment, which she is back there now, I forgot why she is back there but yeahh. Then we will have to wait again because her last appointment of the day is at three I believe. I'm sorry that I don't know what's being done off the tip of my head D: I'm sure all we go well and we will succeed on going home! Wish her luck,

This week I am going to my Moms. Thursday thru Sunday, I think. I'm hoping will have lots of fun! She says we will do alot and have alot planned, but just going there seems like a good thing, I am excited lol. We'll see though.

I'm going for now, thanks guys! I love everyone ;D.

June 5th. 2:00am

Konnichiwa guys. How's it going? Hopefully pretty dang good seeing as this is the last week of school for you all, and I hope everyone did GREAT on their exams. (:

I really don't do anything anymore, not like I can haha. I sit around like I always have but it really gets old. I help Sarah and stay and keep her company because I love her and that's what I should do. Help her in anyway needed. Sapphire hasn't really been around much, and iunno if that worries me but I kinda don't feel that it's right, but what do I know? And Austin, well, he's a guy, well boy, and probably doesn't understand as much as he probably thinks but he should be nicer, verbally anyway, since he likes to say things. I feel that everyone should be helping out and being nice, but it doesn't seem to be going that way or to me it doesn't seem that way.

Someone made me this, suppose to be Stephen and I.
Heh.

As long as Sarah is getting and feeling better I am happy. She has to have chemo though. We don't know when but she does, for about 5-6 months probably. I don't think it will be too bad but you really never know, it can have different effects upon everyone. She already said she would rather her hair fall out then puke alot. Heck, I'm with her on that. I dislike throwing up, alot. All we go good, I hope and know it. Wish her the best of luck, cause I am. Read my last two posts and you will know alot.

Lately, I seem to just feel so down. I really don't know why and it annoys me. I feel that I am not acknowledged enough like I should be and I feel pretty much worthless. Iunno really. I just have alot of issues, and even though talking to someone (1 person) about it helps a little, it still doesn't make a difference about how I feel. I think I have alot of issues and problems with people but can't tell them, cause honestly, would you want to be yelled at?or someone give you an attitude for telling the truth?I wouldn't, so some things are easily kept to myself. Hmm. I miss my Mom, I really do. But I am use to that feeling. Just wish me and her could get more time to hangout. I hope she really is trying to do better. Anyhow.So, here goes a 5th in a row of just feeling..."okay". Ignore thise part of my entry please.

Ima go guys. Thanks for reading. Love you. (: