Almost September!

Hai everyone! I know my last entry was alot of things, and things I need to explain now since a month has passed on. To let everyone know how everything ACTUALLY did turn out.

I got my GED! Yes, I now have a diploma and no longer am I considered a drop out! I did what I had to do. I am so glad that I am finally done with it, sadly ima miss the two great teachers that were there for me in the class, the were really awesome and very helpful! Suprisingly, my highest score was in math, i'm not telling my scores haha. I'm the girl who has a diploma now.

My future..may be right around the corner, but it feels as if it is miles away. Things seem to be back firing here and there, and kinda mess things up. Future why must you do this to me!!?!

No I do not... have my license yet OR a car. I haven't practiced driving in a month! So no use in worrieing about getting my license anytime soon, (need it before January though), because first, I basically got lied too. I'm not getting a car, at all. Second, didn't start college this Fall so wasn't know need. Don't pity me, life goes on. Sucky, but life goes on. I'll HOPEFULLY be going to college next semester, January, and HOPEFULLY i'll have my license or atleast someone who can take me. No license, no car. Can't get a car with no license. Can't drive if you have a license with no car. So, lose lose situation haha. So that's how that goes

Oh! Do you know how bad it sucks to get a letter and a email from the college you want to go to but can't go to it because it's so far away and even if you did have a car it'd be alot of gas. It's 30-40 minutes away. It sucks. Absolutely sucks. So, I think I actually came to a conclusion like, a few days ago. I think ima just have to find something to do at RCC, basically the only thing I can really do at the moment. I'll look through their programs later and see if something interests me. Hopefully there will be something that sparks my interests. I can most likely go to PCC down the road, later, years later >.>. Dad said I could take what I need for the PCC program at RCC and then go to PCC for the main stuff, but that adds in like an extra year or two, and I don't want that, makes no sense to do it for four years, when I can do it in two. So yeah, my lifes story haha. I'll be looking at RCC's page later.

I have been looking.. for jobs, mainly so I will be able to save up for a car one day, and then I want to save up for a trip. I'll explain "the trip" in my next blog entry. The job search is going nowhere and is kinda boring. I also want a job so i can get out of being in the house all day haha. I need to get out, atleast sometimes!

I  have been...spending alot of time with Sarah  She is my step Mom, who I refer to as my Mom ^-^.
I just got her into watching Awkward with me! We started on season one episode one, cause we are just that cool ;D. I really like this show, and I am glad that she does too, or we wouldn't be watching it together and spending time together. I love her sooo much <3.

I also stayed with Nina the other week, we had
loads of fun! I seriously missed her
and Addison so much!
Ima see her this week<3

My.. step sister is going to New Jersey for maybe a month at the month. Austin was supppose to go with her, and their Dad but he changed his mind to stay at home with all of us. That's cool, i'm glad she's getting away. The only thing that really irks me, is that she had a going away party last night, and didn't even invite me let alone her brother or Mother! She complains about how Sarah doesnt' call her first or blah blah, when all this week Sarah has been trying to get in touch with her. Pisses Pees me offf. You are suppose to treat family better I though. But what do I know? I'ma leave this as is, for now.

Ima go guys! Hope your school year, or college, or non college, or life is going great!
I also put pink extensions in my hair woot!

Byeee<3

It's only 5:33PM people! July 23rd.

Hey everyone! Figured I should blog, cause ima cool cat like that ;D. Not exactly to much to update everyone on, but there is a few.

I took this. Holden Beach.

I FINALLY have all my referrals for my big GED tests, which two are this week, and then the rest are in two weeks, sadly. I wished they could just make them all in one week, but noooooo. Sucks balls but eh, it's life I suppose. I am so excited to finally be done with all of this. My future is right around the corner saying, "Hey you, hurry the eff up!" Hahaha. I don't think I will be able to start college this fall, because I don't think I will meet the deadline for the sign up stuff, you know what I mean haha. But yeah, if I don't get too, hopefully I will in the spring, but keep your pretty little fingers crossed for me!

Example of the Hyundai, not the exact one but yeah!

You remember that car I was talking about in my last entry? Welllllllllll, someone snatched it up before I could! Sad I know. But, I think that was meant to happen, because the other day I found the perfect car for me! I have recently discovered that I really like Hyundai cars! I found myself a light blue 2006 Hyundai Sonata! She is a beauty :3. I want her haha. A really nice, and pretty car, that would, in my opininon, be perfect for myself ;D haha. So, keep your fingers crossed there too!

I have practiced driving a few times, even today. I drove from RCC to the stone store, I stopped there because I got scared O.O. Curvy roads and cars were coming so it scared me DX. But, obviously I must drive good because I am alive ^-^! *knocks on wood* I'ma get my license soon, but it's just really scary :/. I know i'm weird, don't judge me!

I went to the beach, last Thursday and stayed till Saturday because Papa Tony (Angel's Daddy) had two strokes! This trip was not for vacation, it was so we could see him. We had originally planned to stay till Sunday, but they let him go home Friday! Because he was walking good and all. I really don't like going to hospitals cause they make me sad :/. His nickname for me is Spike, ahah cool huh?
He's speech got wayyyyyyyyyyy better before we left Saturday, he was talking like himself. But Angel says he won't eve be the same :/. I think, he will be just as good OR even better! Keep him in your prayers.

That's all I will say about that, except, that was the first time I had been to the beach in years, so we stopped to see the ocean and get shells :3.

That's all gals and guys! Please stay tuned! Have a great week!

December 11th 1:07am :D.

Hai hai hai hai! I haven't kept updating and it is making me mad cause I keep saying I willl xDD, I really do try o.o, no joke O.O. I will keep updating sooner or later o.o! Eventually o.o, mwahhaa o.o!

So, my Dad finally took me to the GED place! I start in January, I need to hurry and finally get this shit shiz over with already so I can do something GREAT with my life, seriously. So this woman said they have this photography program and I will probably do it. Then after probably something with business or something in the medical field.

LIFE IS TO SHORT TO ONLY DO ONE THING IN LIFE, right? Indeed I am, so woot woot.

Eh I don't really want to drive but I am going to get my license after my GED or during, ima take the classes. I just don't wann drive with all the fucking freakin' crazy people out there on the road O.O. So yeah o.o.

I will write more another day, kinda tired heh DX. I really will  update soon o.o. Just incase I forget..which I WON'T! Merry Christmas Everyone <3.

November 9th!

Hey there! I know it has been foreverrrrrrrrr, but I haven't really been home, blah blah blah right?

What have you missed? Eh not sure but maybe if you keep reading you will see haha. I know I'm mean, deal with it you awesome person :D!

I finally got the other side of my lip pierced ya know, angel bites, and then I got my bellybutton/naval re-done. The bellybutton hurt worse than my lip one, weird huh? Well, they look pretty darn sweettttt :D!

I've been at Angels for a week or two or three, haha, just haven't felt like going home. Eh. I miss Sarah and everything but it just gets sad/boring/depressing there and with my Dad acting like a butt and won't do anything for me(school wise) I don't see the point in staying there alot, mean I know but I mean c'mon! I seriously should have already had my G.E.D. by now and it is just ridiculous >.>. I'm just waiting for him to text me or call saying that he misses me but I doubt that will happen haha. I'm a sucky person afterall. ANYHOW, enough of that haha.

Sarah's birthday was yesterday! I wasn't there but still wished her a happy birthday. I know her birthday wasn't the best seeing as she had chemo that day, bummer eh? Overall though, from how she said her day was though seemed pretty good to me which is great because she deserves a great birthday even when she isn't feeling well. I love and miss you Sarah (: <3.

I got a tattoo, yep, like a week or two ago, forgot, anyhow it's the eye of horus, it kinda hurt seeing as it hit a little bit of a bone D: !

Babysitting! I have been doing that alot, or well been trying too! I gets money and get to hangout with Addison so it's pretty rad :D. I get to see Nina too so which is super duper awesome cause I love her sooo much :D <3.

Ima go but sorry for a short update, I will really try to post a new entry soon. Love you guys<3.

September 14th.

Konnichiwa babeh ;D. I know I said I would update soon, this is basically soon so shhushhh! I just haven't felt like writing, well blogging haha. Bleh bleh! I cut my hair, yes I kinda look like a guy, but ima girl dang it! I like it though:3.

I've been up here with my Mom for like 2 weeks! I've had alot of fun, and I love her alot. But I miss my Dad and Sarah D:! I shall be going home Monday though so woot woot:3. I hope Sarah is doing good, but eh, ya know how things are so heh.

HMMMMMM.

I still need to get my g.e.d :/, I know I know I need to hurry up and do that, I will I will! I really don't want to drive, but I figure I shiuld atleast get my license when i' 18 even though I probably won't need it cause I won't want to drive haha xD, I'm weird I know, don't judge me! xD

I finally know I want to do you guys! I dunno if I wrote it in another blog post but oh well! I want to be a photographer. Like, take pictures of nature, weddings, kids, familys, anything really(: Except nude people! xDD, haha. That's what I wanna do :3. Then have a minor in business o:, so yeah!

I want another tattoo! I wanted to like have a humming bird and butterfly on my chest, like higher than my japanese tattoos and one on the upper right and the other on the upper left, but I can't find any awesome humming birds but I did find this nice butterfly, picture after this, and well I will probably get it but with different colors:3. Looks pretty wicked eh? (the butterfly on the upper left shoulder, click to make bigger).

Well, I shall update later ;D. Love you guys, peace ;D.

May 13th, almost 12am! ~LONGEST ENTRY YET!~

Hey guys. I know it's been almost a whole damn dang MONTH! Bummer bummer I know, you probably didn't really mind my boring rants and vents anyway, haha. You will probably be reading alot tonight, this morning, or even mid day so sit back and enjoy! Why? Because I feel like typing and if you have read my previous blog entries you would know I enjoy writing, typing, and what not. If you do not know and have not read my previous entries then maybe you should sometime when your bored, lonely, hyper, or some type of mood or non-mood. I shall carry on, thank you, haha.

What did I do today? I woke up and got ready to go watch/see Stallone and Sapphire graduate. They got their G.E.D's and well, getting that you also get a formal or well traditional graduation ceremony. Well, I finally got there! It wasn't as crowded as I had thought it would be, thank gawd >.>. But, I do tend to get attention..because of my damn darn hair, haha. Nina and Adam took me, and little Addison was there too. So I sat next to them, and most of my other family sat behind us. This seems to be taking forever to get to my point, xD. Point is, I watched them walk and get their diploma and it was pretty neat. First graduation I had ever been too, unless I was a baby..therefore I wouldn't remember haha. It was a pretty good experience and such. I enjoyed it.

I hope to succeed in getting my G.E.D as well, soon..like summer soon. The sooner the better right? My Dad said if I do it he would too, online courses though. I hope he's being 'foe real because that would be pretty wicked. I would finally not be considered a "drop out" anymore and at least having a G.E.D would be better than nothing, right? I still want to accomplish things in life, and become something..it's just going to take alot, alot of hope, alot of courage, alot of effort, and alot of alots! I already know it's going to be hard, everyone tells me that and I'm just sitting there thinking "Duh, I'm not retarded, alot of things in life are pretty dang hard." The simplest things in life aren't even that simple, c'mon now. But yeah, becoming something is really important to me.

I went and spent the night with my Mom not to long ago. It wasn't that bad. She seemed good, sane, and not high. Asheville, North Carolina, is such a beautiful place to go too. You should visit. People roaming and singing in downtown and playing musical instruments. Not to mention the hairstyles people had, I saw a purple Mohawk o:  I enjoyed seeing her and staying with her that night, because I hadn't seen her in so long. I was worried though, before hand. I was scared something would go wrong while I was with her, that she would do something and screw shit crap up again, and just worried to be with her. But, I was good and came home alive, haha. I was happy overall. I still miss her knowing that she lives ways from me but she texts me almost everyday. Also, I went to one of her meetings and it was really..something, nothing I had ever been to before. AAA meeting? Or something like that for addicts. I watched this one dude, well man, and he went up to a stand and was talking about how he had been clean for more than twenty years now and was really happy. He even told his story, I'm not sure if the word that would describe that would be inspiring but it was something near that. I really had a good time with her. I hope that next time it will be just as great.

Now to talk about my other Mother, my step Mom. The one who has been there for me since I was really little, not including my Dad. I'm sure she might be reading this because she usually checks up on my blog haha. She is truly an amazing person and an amazing Mother. I haven't really told anyone, but my family members that aren't that close to her..but she has Breast Cancer. Yes, Breast Cancer. She and the rest of us have known for awhile. She's has to go to many doctor and therapist appointments. She is having surgery the 25th of May, and I know she's probably scared to death. Hell Heck who wouldn't scared? I hate to say this, seeing as she is probably reading this and already knows, but there is a chance she/whoever can die through this type of surgery..But that's like every surgery right? I am sure everything will go fine. I am positive everything will be and go fine! If you don't know what anyone is like after breast cancer surgery you should probably look it up, it isn't so good. Takes weeks to months to years maybe to be fully okay or healed through a surgery. I admit, it's going to rough after the 25th. Mainly because she is going to get tired of laying around and not being able to do anything, and that truly sucks ass butt! Am I right? I believe I am, thank you. But I will be here and there to try to help her and do and get what she needs >.<. Not going to be easy like I said, but she will get through this and be a strong amazing woman like she already is. Please wish the best of luck towards her, even pray for her if that's what you do. Anything nice like that would be amazing. Thank you. Also, before I end this. Before I logged onto my Blogger today someone else was signed on..and you know who made their self a blog? My step Mom! I know what your thinking..Damnnnn Dannnngggggg. I know right, haha. I will put a link up to it below and you can read what she has posted so far. Follow her on here and go on a journey that she herself has not even begun yet. (She doesn't blog much I think.) Thank you for reading this <3. I love you Sarah.

Step Moms Blog: http://twistedsinz.blogspot.com/
Follow her^

That is it for tonight guys! I really appreciate if you guys read all this. It means alot. I love you all <3.
Pictures below of what was discussed<3.

 Graduation photos:

Dad, Sapphire, Austin, Stallone, and Me.

Sapphire and Stallone.

Again.

 Some Asheville pictures:

Mountains o:

Alot of people downtown, look at her and her instrument! So cool :3.







I must say, this might be one of the best entries I have wrote yet.  (: