Wow, it's January..The JUICY Stuff.

Hey hey. I am always off and on with blogging. I feel like I left this blog with some unanswered questions. I am a curious person myself, so maybe someone else is too and was curious about what happened after that date.
This should be a super honest blog entry, because my last entry was partially influenced. I say that because the person I went on a date with probably would have looked at my post.

So, let's catch up..on juicy gossip or relationships. So let's ignore the last post, and let me re-ask that same question.

Am I ready to date? Sure, yeah, why not. It's been over a year since my breakup.
Since my breakup I've had; one major crush, 3 dates, a month relationship, close friend crush, and etc. (yes, in that order)

Nothing happened with my "one major crush", and I say major because this was the first person I truly liked after my breakup.

I went on three dates, yes. The first date was the one I had mentioned in my last entry. Now, I know I said the date WASN'T that bad, but I mean, it was half and half really. Long story short, the double date was just really uncomfortable. His friends couldn't go out without having some type of drug in their system because apparently they didn't think bowling would be fun while not high on something. I didn't get it. So that was a downside. We went to iHop afterwards, and that was nice, and fun. I feel like this doesn't sound like a bad date, but the environment was just not fun. This guy and I only talked for a total of like a month or a month and a half. He kept pressuring me to be his girlfriend, yet he knew I wanted to wait and give it time. I got tired of that, and so did he. He messed it up at the end for himself, and I am actually glad that I am not with him, xD.

The second date was with a guy I met off of Tinder, and before you judge that, I knew someone that knew his best friend, so it seemed okay -I'm alive, yay.I actually thought that date went well. We went to the fair, k-mart, and the park. It was pretty fun, and I had maybe talked to him for a month or so. After we met, he basically was short with replies and texts. After it had been a month later, I sent him a text saying, "hey, hope you're doing okay", and he basically told me that a lot had been going on, etc etc. Nothing happened with that.
The third date was with an old friend of which I knew because of elementary school. My sister's boyfriend was really good friends with him, and apparently he talked to them and wanted to go on a double date, with me and them. So what happened was, my sister and her boyfriend were not able to make it, so he and I went on a regular date by ourselves. He took me to Applebee's, which was pretty nice (I had never been there before). After we ate, we then went and saw a movie. I let him pick the movie, because I didn't really care; everything that was showing seemed good. He took me home, and was a gentlemen for sure. He said he had a great time, but the next few days after that, he didn't really talk to me. Let me just say, I don't care if any of the dates I went on were bad, but if someone didn't have a great time, they shouldn't say that they did and then stop being your friend >.>.

Yes, a month relationship. I was in a relationship for about a month with a guy I had met in my Art History class. I thought he was exactly what I needed. He was nerdy, shy, innocent, and never really had a real relationship before. He was a few years younger than me, I don't care about age as long as it's 18 or 18+, just saying. He really was sweet and caring, but I ended it because there was no emotional attachment. I didn't feel a spark. I felt like, if it's been this long I should know if we match up well or if there was a special connection there.I feel like we had more of a physical connection. I mean, I thought he was adorable, no doubt. I hope he's okay though. That's it on that.

So, my close friend crush. I don't really wanna say much about this, just because, yeah. Long story short, I would rather be friends with this person for a life time then possible not working out and messing up our friendship and possibly other friendships (it's complicated).

It has been a little crazy, but that's okay, that is life. I still look forward to talking to people, and making friendships, even if it doesn't lead to anything else.I am a pretty positive person, if something is meant to happen, it'll happen.

 

That is all for now!

This really wasn't juicy, but IT IS something okay xD.

Have a great day, and year!

Photo Nina took <3

Hey hi hello world! Been a month, I know haha, craziness right xD? Well, not much to update but I shall update anyway ^-^

How have classes been you may ask?! Well, classes have been pretty good, shocker right? If I had to pick a class that I least like it would be Math because the teacher is really slow and I feel like I already know what she is teaching, haha. I am sure everyone thinks they know what they are doing till test time, right? xD.  Yoga isn't so bad, but the day after my 1st class my body was sore haha, and it STILL gets sore after sometimes--just depends what we have done that day.  I LOVE my English class! The teacher is so hilarious and even jokes around with the students, that's the kind of teachers I like;the nice, funny, strange ones haha.In every class I have all of the students get along, that I have noticed anyway. I also like my Art class because even though I am in there for sooo long, we draw half of the time we are in there haha, so not to bad. I feel like I wrote this all over the place haha, sorry readers! Still love me right xDD? I think my grades are good, I don't know yet because they aren't up yet O.O...strange, oh well.

Nina at an old building!

Me and my lovely sister, Nina, went on a photo-shoot last week. Wait wait. I wanted to take pictures of her XD, so a photo-shoot for HER XD, but in the end she ended up taking some photos off me because I did want some, so it all worked out! We went to our downtown and took some photos near building walls, were noone could see us >.>.. Then on the railroad tracks, not safe, but we were careful! Then after that, we left to go to the cemetery, she wanted some photos took there and we did! I got some nice shots there, we aren't disrespectful people I promise ~
We had alot of funny spending some time together :D, I loves her so mucchh!

Me and lovely Leroy <3

I stayed with my boyfriend for four nights! Since my sister works on the weekdays I have to have someone to take me to my classes and then get me, and he was nice enough to do so ^-^. We had a blast! We went out to eat alot haha--Mexican restaurant, Pizza Hut, Taco Bell, Burger King, etc. I love going out to eat and spending time with him :). (I enjoy going out to eat with my family, of course!). We also went to Rue21, and of course I got a few things, mwhaha! We also went to Catos, and Goodwill so I could thrift some but I only got some books and a pair of boots, gr.
All in all, I always have a blast with my babe <3

I think that's about it y'all! Have a great day <3

Wow, long time now write...

love

Writing a penpal back!

Hey everyone! I know it's been forever, NOT JUST foreverrrr, but a very long time! Or, feels like a very long time haha. I am sorry for neglecting my blog, but to be honest it's not like many people read it, but it's just an extra thing I enjoy, even though I haven't wrote in awhile. Whoever reads my blog though, I appreciate it! I'll be updating this from now on, atleast once a month! YAY YAY, I know I know, keep the applause down people O.O.

Stephen and I <3.

 Summer summer summer! My summer has had its ups and downs but I guess I can't really complain because I'm alive and doing swell. No vacation so far, and I don't think I'll have one unless I visit my Mom, which I'm not sure if I am at the moment. It doesn't and won't bother me if I don't have a vacation because a vacation is getting away for a little while and when I'm editing photos, videos and writing back to my penpals, I feel like that's a little get away on it's own. You know, when you are soooo concentrated on something and the world around you is all like * SWIRLY SWIRLY*, haha, you know what I mean so there. I also get  like that when I'm with my boyfriend, Stephen, because I love him so much. OH ADRIANNA, HUSH ABOUT YOUR LOVE BUSINESS, fine fine but he is really amazing, and I don't know what I would do without my love. Back on topic! So yes, I still enjoy photography and editing the Youtube videos that I make. I now have 205 subscribers <3, YAY! Not many, but that's alot to me :) and better than 0. I can't remember if I told everyone that I write to people, well PENPALS, but yes, I do haha. I currently have 7 penpals I believe, if they continue to write back haha, I suppose I am kinda weird soo.I've been writing since the 4th grade and will continue to do so for a very long time. This summer topic just went everywhere haha, whoops!~

I attended college last spring, which everyone knows haha. After alot of thinking and over debating, I switched my major to get my degree in Associates in Arts. I switched because I wanted to do film and video production, right? Well, if I do 2 years at my community one, I can transfer to a better college and do that, and also do photography as a minor if they offer it. Seems like a WAY better plan and this way I can be happy with what I'm trying to do. I went to register for my classes on Monday, and of course since I was kinda late with registering I had to get times I didn't really want but it'll work. I automatically had to take a "pe" class, which I chose Yoga. Wish me luck, haha, not sure how that will work. Then, I have to take a English class, and a few Math classes, but that's fine, knew I had to take those. Last, I HAD to take Drawing 1, um, I don't draw, I DOODLE, so if I get bad grades..this ginger will be pissed! The lady did say however, that if I just turned everything on time that I would be fine. She better be right or she won't be fine >.>. DUN DUN DUNNNN! Ready for Fall classes to begin!

Stallone and his girlfriend, Ciara!

I visited Virginia for a day. I forgot to mention that in my "vacation section" but that doesn't really count so yeah. My boyfriend and I took my brother, Stallone, to visit and finally meet his girlfriend. Stephen drove of course, still no license here! That was one crazy drive, but it was fun spending time with my boyfriend and brother at the same time. Atleast they get along haha, or else there probably would have been problems. We did a day trip (taking him there and coming back home) and then left to go back and get him 2 days later, which went good. My brother and his girlfriend have a long distance relationship, and had never met up until the day we took him up there, sounds like that show Catfish right? But, they had webcamed and all that shiz. They have been dating 8 months today, CONGRATS LOVE BIRDS <3!

Father's Day picture collage (:

My Dad's birthday was the 10th! I got him a card and a pair of pants for his birthday haha, not much but it counts ^-^. I know he liked them, thank gawd xD. I'll show pictures of that stuff and also Father's Day because I bought him lunch! We had a really good day eating Chinese food ^-^. Then he eats Mexican food on his birthday haha. Craziness. I love my Daddy though, through all the fights and disagreements, he is mostly right about life. He is an amazing Father and without him, I wouldn't be the "lady" that I am today.

Dad's birthdayyy.

Concluding this for now, maybe I'll update more, but thanks for sticking with me on my blog!
Much love ~

June 5th. 2:00am

Konnichiwa guys. How's it going? Hopefully pretty dang good seeing as this is the last week of school for you all, and I hope everyone did GREAT on their exams. (:

I really don't do anything anymore, not like I can haha. I sit around like I always have but it really gets old. I help Sarah and stay and keep her company because I love her and that's what I should do. Help her in anyway needed. Sapphire hasn't really been around much, and iunno if that worries me but I kinda don't feel that it's right, but what do I know? And Austin, well, he's a guy, well boy, and probably doesn't understand as much as he probably thinks but he should be nicer, verbally anyway, since he likes to say things. I feel that everyone should be helping out and being nice, but it doesn't seem to be going that way or to me it doesn't seem that way.

Someone made me this, suppose to be Stephen and I.
Heh.

As long as Sarah is getting and feeling better I am happy. She has to have chemo though. We don't know when but she does, for about 5-6 months probably. I don't think it will be too bad but you really never know, it can have different effects upon everyone. She already said she would rather her hair fall out then puke alot. Heck, I'm with her on that. I dislike throwing up, alot. All we go good, I hope and know it. Wish her the best of luck, cause I am. Read my last two posts and you will know alot.

Lately, I seem to just feel so down. I really don't know why and it annoys me. I feel that I am not acknowledged enough like I should be and I feel pretty much worthless. Iunno really. I just have alot of issues, and even though talking to someone (1 person) about it helps a little, it still doesn't make a difference about how I feel. I think I have alot of issues and problems with people but can't tell them, cause honestly, would you want to be yelled at?or someone give you an attitude for telling the truth?I wouldn't, so some things are easily kept to myself. Hmm. I miss my Mom, I really do. But I am use to that feeling. Just wish me and her could get more time to hangout. I hope she really is trying to do better. Anyhow.So, here goes a 5th in a row of just feeling..."okay". Ignore thise part of my entry please.

Ima go guys. Thanks for reading. Love you. (:

Wednesday,September 29.

Hey guys! It's been awhile hasn't it? Well, yesterday was my oldest brothers birthday,Stallone. He is now 18! Which is kinda awesome,even though he'll probably always act like a little kid..playing video games and what not. I've dyed all of his hair blue once! It looked pretty epic,then awhile ago but he cut his hair,what a shame. He plans to get a mohwak soon ahha. So yeah. And with me nothing has happened really. Not that I can recall as much. I went to a fair last weekend and met someone ive never met in person and I was like DDUUUDEEE. That was a pretty awesome weekend. I;m currently in ACG(: and listening to music;Asking Alexandria. Its a great band!
Wowie,I'm ina play but not technically,all I do is walk up there then walk off,haha. How much easier could that possible get? xD Wish me luck.
I'll blog more soon(:
I love bloggingg<3
Have a great week and weekend<3

Fifth of September my Friends.

Ello there once again. I hope everyone is doing great and is in a lovely mood! As for me,im quite alright,nothing to be to excited about..Gotta go back to school Tuesday,xD. NOOOO,save mehh?With your super hero powers that will defeat the dark side? Or if you can't,thats perfectly fine. I'll still probably love you..maybe..it's possible..Mhm!
So,I told Sapphire to Blog! So shes found other sites to blog on. Honestly,does it matter where you blog cause if it does I'd like to know this! I figured if this is not the best site to blog on,i'll just create other blogs on different sites with the same stuff this says in it. That could always work,dont'cha think?
Oh,I was also wondering,what do people blog about? I mean if im blogging or whatever wrong I would like to know so I could achieve the BLOG power! MWAHAHAH! o.o,sorry,haha.
So,something that upseted me today?! Well,besides the fact that it's Sunday and mail doesn't run on Sundays! Which why is that anyway?! It crushes the hopes and dreams of people who write!
Anyhow,the reason why this sucked for me is because I've wrote my Mom a bunch of letters in the past two weeks,and I haven't heard from her! DX. It's a down right bummer. Oh,I'm sure you may have a questioned look upon your face about why I write my Mother? It's because shes in prison,yes prison. It's sad isnt it? I'm just glad I'm actually taking my time to write her..Shes been in and out of jail/prison since I was a kid. So,my Dad was the one who mostly took care of me. Then he met his "love",to till this day they still haven't married. it's been 9 years in all?Maybe 10 years. Sapphire would know. So yeah,Him and Sarah(the lover),were the ones who took care of me and my older brother Stallone. He'll be 18 at the end of September. So,later on Sarah had a baby,Tatiana;who is now 5 years old and just started kindergarten(sp?). She has gotten into trouble every day,I wonder who she gets it from..Hmm. But yeah,Sarah has also Sapphire;18years old,and Austin who is 15years old. Their my family,and I would be nowhere without them till this day.
I didn't mention my half sister,Nina shes 19 or 18 years old,I forget this things cause of the amount of siblings I have.Haha. Shes a CNA or CNA assistant which is pretty cool. She is also about to have a little baby! I know AWWWHHH rightt? I'ma be an awesome unique aunt,or so I think.(:
Whooo,I've wrote alot. I'm never gonna get veiws cause I talk/type to much. DX
Anyhow,have a great week you guys.
I'll blog soon(: